Things have been very busy as usual these days, I really want to write more stuff on the blog but never really get the time or really have much to say anymore, I think I have exhausted the whole self harm subject for myself and if I keep writing about the past it is just going to open old wounds.
I have been doing a lot of thinking over the last while, mainly about what I could have done different over the last year, about the people I could have avoided hurting and maybe save myself some pain along the way but I suppose it all has lead me to the path I am following now. I can not let express the peace I am feeling, the heaviness seems to be gone, well at least the whole self harm burden anywho but now I am dealing with other problems, mainly family related. What do you do when a close family member is an alcoholic? What can you do when you have tried and tried to help them but they just won't stop and they are a danger to themselves and others around them? I have tried to get to the root of the problem, I have used emotional blackmail but nothing has worked and now I feel I have no other option but to give up and get on with my own life.
I know it may sound selfish but I have only started to really get use to the new person I am and feeling am getting dragged back a bit everyday and I refuse to let that happen.
The past is in the past and I am movin on.....