And on and on and on.....

I have not been blogging to much in the last while due to work pressures and the general paranoia of feeling that I am going mad, well not really but sometime I get myself so worked up that that is the way I feel. I am quite exhausted at the moment due to damn hard work and generally not having a break since last year but I suppose that is my own fault for being so easy going with the people I work with.
Last week I reached the end of my rope and made a complaint about the other people I work with to my boss, I generally felt that they where not pulling there weight and were basically leaving me to do all the work by myself. After several arguments with them over this and not actually getting anywhere I decided I had no choice but to have a word with the boss. I don't like doing this and I felt bad but I thought that they don't obviously give a damn about me so why should I reciprocate. The outcome was one getting a written warning and the other getting a good talking to but as of this week nothing has really changed. My job consists of Graphic design and being the warehouse manager and both jobs are extremely busy at the moment, I love being busy but there is a limit to how much you can do in any one day.
I worry about how all this stress will effect my recovery, I am trying to avoid stress as much as I can and eliminate most things in my life that are causing me stress but unfortunately people hate to see you succeed and tend to go out of the way to piss you off.
Overall I have been feeling a bit down in the last while, I have not harmed and have not really contemplated it but it is hard sometime when the coping mechanism is taken away. Hopefully I may get a chance to get away for a while next month even if it is only to the countryside it would be something.